SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY!
I’m having a hard time taking good photos lately. Or maybe I just don’t how to get to work early and take my portraits calmly before anyone shows up at the salon, so I take rushed ones that make me look bad. Anyway, this will do.
This week has been okay. Pretty chill. I mean, I feel like I barely left the apartment on Monday. It’s just been so cold… I’ve been staying in, drawing here and there. Working on a new painting at the moment. I’ve mainly been watching a lot of comedy in order to cleanse my system because before THAT I was watching a lot of stuff about 9/11 and the World Trade Center and generally everything that will make you upset. I don’t know why I do that to myself, like fill my head with dark stuff.
I guess I was interested in the story of the World Trade Center because I was watching a documentary about the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory fire of 1911. A lot of the women in that fire ended up jumping from the burning building and then I started to think about people that jumped from the World Trade Center. I think about 200 people jumped from the WTC. And about 50 people jumped from the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory building. Obviously more people died in the WTC tragedy but a higher percentage of people jumped from the shirtwaist factory fire. I don’t know why that’s interesting to me.
It’s probably because it’s so horrifying to me.
When I was painting a lot of pictures of babies, people assumed it was because I like babies. I think I’m just more interested in babies but am kind of terrified by them. And also really annoyed by them and how weird people are about their babies. And how babies always seem to end up at whatever restaurant I go to.
And I kind of hate Kim Kardashian, but I was really into the idea of painting flowers on her Paper Magazine photos.
Maybe I’m just drawn to things I am afraid of and repulsed by?