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1.15.15

SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 1.15.15Happy Thursday, friends.

I’m having a hard time taking good photos lately. Or maybe I just don’t how to get to work early and take my portraits calmly before anyone shows up at the salon, so I take rushed ones that make me look bad. Anyway, this will do.

This week has been okay. Pretty chill. I mean, I feel like I barely left the apartment on Monday. It’s just been so cold… I’ve been staying in, drawing here and there. Working on a new painting at the moment. I’ve mainly been watching a lot of comedy in order to cleanse my system because before THAT I was watching a lot of stuff about 9/11 and the World Trade Center and generally everything that will make you upset. I don’t know why I do that to myself, like fill my head with dark stuff.

I guess I was interested in the story of the World Trade Center because I was watching a documentary about the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory fire of 1911. A lot of the women in that fire ended up jumping from the burning building and then I started to think about people that jumped from the World Trade Center. I think about 200 people jumped from the WTC. And about 50 people jumped from the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory building. Obviously more people died in the WTC tragedy but a higher percentage of people jumped from the shirtwaist factory fire. I don’t know why that’s interesting to me.

It’s probably because it’s so horrifying to me.

When I was painting a lot of pictures of babies, people assumed it was because I like babies. I think I’m just more interested in babies but am kind of terrified by them. And also really annoyed by them and how weird people are about their babies. And how babies always seem to end up at whatever restaurant I go to.

And I kind of hate Kim Kardashian, but I was really into the idea of painting flowers on her Paper Magazine photos.

Maybe I’m just drawn to things I am afraid of and repulsed by?

xo
craig

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SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY!

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1.8.15

SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 1.8.15Hi! Happy Self Portrait Thursday… on a Friday.

Apologies for missing the last two weeks. Christmas and New Year’s both fell on a Thursday. Yesterday was pretty busy, but I’m here now.

Winter is finally sinking its teeth in NYC. Like, it’s cold enough that it’s putting me in a bad mood. You know the kind of mood where you’re mad at the weather. (Well, to be fair, that happened once. And I was mostly mad at myself for failing to dress properly.) The good part is that I finally got to see how Chilly, my dog, does in the snow, and she did so well. We even took a little snow selfie early this morning. She just won’t go in the rain. Who can?

My mind is starting to move and create work again. I was worried another creative block was taking hold until I realized artwork production usually slows in the final months of the year. Even if you’re as anti-holiday as I was this year, the energy and excitement and obligations still take their toll. And I was drinking more than normal because that’s what one does at parties and small gatherings. And I was eating more. I’m still eating a lot of ice cream. You think the cold would diminish that craving, but it has the opposite effect: just makes me wanna go home and cuddle and eat ice cream.

But yeah, I have some new paintings in the works. And a few studio visits coming up in the next couple weeks or so. Excited about that.

ALSO excited about the Sleater-Kinney album that just leaked. It’s really good. Not too long either. No slow songs, and it really packs a punch. It came at just the right time, too. I was all out of music to listen to.

I’m still looking for someone to go see Sleater-Kinney with me next month… Isn’t it sad how I can’t find a date? My younger sister got tickets to see them in Houston, so she asked me to go with her—which, you know, involves me going to Houston. And you just know the show is going to be full of all these people I used to know in Houston. I almost feel like I’m being forced back to Texas in a really extreme way because I never come home for the holidays anymore. Like, NOW not only do you have to see your family, Craig, but you also have to see ALL these random people used to know.

You can’t ever truly run away.

xo
craig

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12.18.14

SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 12.18.14

Hey, happy Thursday!

I had my coworker gel down my hair today because of this photo of my grandfather I just saw for the first time. My father sent me the picture randomly, and at first I thought he was sending me a really old picture of myself—until I realized. I never met my grandfather because he died before I was born. And it probably wouldn’t really matter to me either except for the fact that we look just alike!

I don’t think much about second lives and such. I reserve most of my spirituality for making and appreciating art. I don’t believe in astrology or Christian explanations about the world or anything else, really, haha. But seeing him always makes me wonder if maybe I had an earlier life as him and maybe I’ve come back.

What if this is my second go at life and I’m supposed to really do something special? That is some real pressure.

In other news, tonight is the Seagull holiday party. I made sure to dress a little nice. We’re having pizza and champagne at the salon, then we’re going to Joe’s Pub to see Justin Vivian Bond perform. We usually go see Bridget Everett perform, but she doesn’t have a holiday show this year… I’m excited, though. I’ve never seen Justin Bond perform. My only worry is that I drink enough that I have a headache in the morning. Ever since that last time I got super, super drunk, I have avoided alcohol.

This weekend I’ll try my hand at making latkes for Ben and Chilly. Then some other stuff.

xo
craig

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12.11.14

SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! Hello there! I’m back after taking a month off. I’m sorry about that. I actually didn’t intend on taking a month off.

It all started with a bad hair day…

But I’m back now. I’m having a so-so day. Just working out kinks with some people and waiting for that to get back on track. A lot has been up. Of course I can’t remember it all. The first thing was that I dyed my hair purple and got a haircutThen there was Thanksgiving. And on Tuesday I finally got my Lil Kim tattoo! I’d scheduled that appointment back in the summer. It’s by Virginia Elwood of Saved Tattoo in Williamsburg. It’s absolutely perfect. I couldn’t be happier with it. I was super impressed.

And that’s about it right now.

December is a weird month because everyone’s busy and everyone leaves. I’m not going anywhere this year. I think my new Christmas tradition will be staying in NYC alone. This year I have my dog Chilly to hang out with. I’ve just been feeling resentful of consumer traditions that I’ve inherited and don’t want. I’m not sentimental about Christmas because it really doesn’t mean anything to me. (I mean, if I thought really hard about it I’d be reminded of a lot of disposable toys and gifts and financial stresses put on my family when I was growing up…) I don’t decorate for the holiday. However, I did almost buy a little tiny tree that was being sold outside Whole Foods for like $20, but then I thought better of it.

I wonder if my views will change when I have children. Probably.

Anyway, time to go. Fun catching up. Let’s hope this weekend turns out better than the past day or so. See you next Thursday! I promise.

xo
craig

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11.6.14

SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 11.6.14

Hello. Happy rainy Thursday. I hope you’re dry today. My feet are slightly wet. I have a bad habit of wearing shoes until they get holes in them. I’m really good at letting things get kind of out of hand like that before taking control.

I’m never bored but there’s room for improvement.

I’ve been working on my art a lot this week. The same needlepoint image. But I also realized I have this stack of watercolor postcards to be used. Was never sure what to do with them until recently: I’m gonna do a little series knocking off Richard Prince’s nurses. (I’ve done one so far, but I can do better.) Normally I’m against copying someone else’s work—haha—but the Prince nurses are knockoffs already. I thought it’d be funny to copy his copies. But do so less imposingly. Instead of really big, they’ll be really small. And the colors won’t be as vibrant but light washes. More my style. It’s just for fun. Really the intention is to keep my mind going while working on a needlepoint. (Also I might donate one to Visual AIDS for their annual fundraiser!)

My dog Chilly, who has struggled with confidence issues since we got her about a month ago, is becoming more confident. She’s learned to head-butt me while I’m sleeping in order to wake me up so I can feed/walk her in the morning. She hasn’t understood the concept of daylight savings time yet, so she’s requesting everything an hour earlier than scheduled. It’s kinda cute. Kind of annoying, too.

(I wonder what it’s like to wake up with no sense of responsibility. Like, what is it like to wake up and not have to worry about hygiene, your relationship, your job, your dog, etc.? I guess it’d be a bad existence. Just all of a sudden I realized how once you open your eyes, you’ve got an obligation to something.)

The other day in the middle of the night, I had Ben cuddling me and Chilly head-butting me for attention. I woke up agitated and really hot (cuz the heaters are on now!) and yelled out, “Oh my god, everyone is touching me! Just let me sleep, you guys!”

I suppose it could be worse. NO body could be touching me…

xo
craig

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10.30.14

SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 10.30.14

I changed my blog around a bit because you don’t realize how old-looking and outdated everything is until a lot of time has gone by. Last time I checked some of the photo links were broken. It’s really frustrating trying to fix stuff on the internet because I have the smallest attention span when it comes to these things. I also don’t find WordPress to be very intuitive. Maybe I’m just stupid.

I started this new needlepoint piece this week. With work that is longer and more tedious to produce I am obsessed with working as much as possible. Like I want every moment that I’m free to be working on finishing it. I’ll work until my eyes are drooping. My watercolors don’t take me nearly as long. I can do those in small steps spread out over the work week. I’m less obsessed with working on those. Needlepoints are actually one long race to see the results.

I’ve been working a lot this week, so not too much exciting has happened. I did go see the Egon Schiele exhibit at the Neue Galerie and the exhibit on mourning attire at the Met on Monday morning before work. The Met exhibit was small but still nice to see. The Schiele portraits were really inspiring, and he used some techniques I want to play around with in the next watercolor self portrait ideas I have brewing in my head. The subject matter was pretty dark and sexy. But everyone in that museum was really old and they wore those tour headsets. (This one man entered a room that didn’t have any audio, and he for real didn’t know what to do with himself. How about look at the pictures, dude?) I prefer Scheile’s later work to his earlier work because a lot of the earlier work they showed were just commissioned portraits of (rich) people. And it’s not that I don’t think they were nice portraits. It’s just that artists make better work when they’re making what they want rather than what they’re told. Or what they feel like they should make.

In other news, Sleater Kinney tickets went on sale last Friday and quickly sold out. I somehow managed to get three tickets. I’m selling one.

Tomorrow is Halloween. I’m not going to do anything because it’s one of those holidays where it’s probably best just for me to stay home. I’m not a Halloween person, despite the movie “Halloween” being one of my all-time favorites. But I always start to feel left out on Halloween because everyone has plans. It’s a stupid feeling I get. Like, Craig, you know you don’t really want to do anything today anyway, so cut it out. I plan on working on some art with Ben and eating some weed gummies. Hanging out with Chilly, our dog. And eating a pizza because I’ve been craving pizza all week!

xo
craig

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10.23.14

SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 10.23.14Hi, it’s Thursday. (Took this photo first thing this morning but just finally getting around to posting it.)

It’s rainy. It’s cold, but I’m still in an okay mood. Just a little tired. I didn’t really eat dinner last night, just drank a lot of coffee so that I could be up when Ben got home around 1AM. I wanted to hang out, but my coffee plan backfired. I felt really nauseous by the time he got home and almost got sick. Bummer. But hey, I’m good overall.

The week has been a bit of a blur. I can’t really recall a lot. Monday morning was a good morning. A lot of intense physical sensations coupled with excitement at the news that Sleater-Kinney are releasing a new album in January. So, there’s that.

On Tuesday I went to my friend Juan Betancurth‘s studio at the Queens Museum, where we worked on a project together: he tied me up to a wall and videotaped me for over two hours. Well, I wasn’t really tied up. I was tethered with this rappelling gear and just did a video performance where I sort of explored the feeling of the straps on my body and being bound with some freedom of movement. It was an interesting experience… My head felt really empty afterwards. I was drained and my skin was red from the straps and had little cuts from the gear digging into me.

It’s weird going out to the Queens Museum. I haven’t toured the museum yet. Just been to Juan’s studio. But it seems kinda deserted and odd. It’s at the same place the 1964 World’s Fair took place. There’s this huge skeletal globe and some old observatory towers. The park around the museum is huge and empty. It takes forever to get out there. It’s a bit of a trip. Mentally and literally.

In other news, I’m looking forward to having the weekend off, then gearing up to work a lot next week. Whatever, I need the money.

I’m toying around with some painting ideas in my head. I stayed up late painting but wasn’t happy with what I was experimenting with. It’s tough because what I see in my head is a lot different from what I’m able to paint at the moment.

I think the things in our heads always look a little different when we make them a reality, though.

xo
craig

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